three poems

some more recent than others

Ideas (may, 2010)

I have the most wonderful idea:

Let us never stop laughing

like we're keeping a secret

Let us always dance when we're together

as if we're performing for the world

Let us act like we're alone together

even when we're surrounded by people

Let us act like we've been One for many lifetimes

though we've yet to meet

And let me never forget

all the things I've yet to discover with You

88:88 (june, 2010)

I set the clock to 88:88 and I watch time unravel

and I travel to the place where the structure has collapsed

I gasp, it's obvious why the whole thing has snapped

Once the damage is done, well, there's no going back

There was but a thin grasp on reality holding it up

So of course it came down, it simply wasn't enough

To keep the universe from falling to its knees

We scream at everything we've come to believe

"I know this happens to others, but why'd it happen to me?"

You see, this structure is weak because when I look at Faith

I see shattered expectations, and hope as the bait

This place didn't come down due to lack of faith in some God

Its when your soul has a longing and your head tells you not

to pursue these things that make us feel so alive

We simply do these things because otherwise we'd die.

It's 88:88 and I watch the world spin out of control

and spin off into this gigantic and gorgeous black hole

My soul looks at it all and begins to find peace

The skeptic inside says "Don't be deceived"

Why am I so concerned if God is a lie

When I'm convinced by fragile things like structure and time

My senses are the deceivers, the would be receivers

Catching every arbitrary thing it knows how to catch

Then we see a thing like You, and it all quickly snaps

In this little chaos, I feel oddly at home

As if I'm remembering why I was never truly alone

It dawns on me for a second that I'm staring at God

Because God is everything about us that our soul has forgot

"please leave" (july 2010)

I put on a blanket,

bundled up,

But it's no longer cold

Sweat and discomfort build

I sleep this way

for days.

You walked in, completely

Uninvited

But I let you

stay

for days.